Uncluttering

In a post a few days back, I mentioned how, from time to time, I set out to clear the clutter in my house.

I am now at the end of one of these cleansings.

The basement, some closets, and most urgently, a spare bedroom that over the past couple of years had become the parking place for all sorts of crap. I never meant for that to happen. It just did. Items would be left there with the intention of storing them more permanently in the attic or basement, or discarding them. But none of those things ever happened.

The basement had been cleaned out a few years ago following a flood that destroyed much of its contents. The attic was emptied in advance of a yard sale two years ago. Perhaps I left all that junk in the spare bedroom to avoid filling up those spaces again.

Be that as it may, I finally attended to that room, and over the course of a couple of weeks, I  emptied it. My  motivation was the impending arrival of guests in a couple of weeks, and the need for space to house them.

This purging of the premises has affected me differently that the ones of the past. Usually I feel a sense of accomplishment and elation once done. But not this time. All I feel is melancholy.  A deep, sadness.

This house has never felt so empty. So devoid of life and love. It's just a big empty space. And I have been confined here by the sweltering weather. Oh, I get out to run my usual errands, and to take my walks, but the moment I return, I am climbing the walls. I want to run away. Get in my car and drive. Anywhere but here.

I know that in time this house will house a family again. It will once again be home.

I just don't know how I will cope until that happens.

Comments

[Susan]

I know that feeling all too well. I hope you get out in the world soon.

[bhd]

Oh, dear Allan. I hope this feeling passes for you, that it's just a bump in the road.

I bet your house isn't empty. I bet it's expectant. Maybe a little impatient.

Hopefully you won't spend the time "until then" wishing time away. Come here and visit. We'll do the touristy thing. You'll be among friends. We'll talk.

[Michelle]

Fill it with love and hope as the future comes gently towards you.

BHD says it very well.

*hug*

[melanie]

these ladies have covered the issues well. Maybe pick up a new hobby, or an old one, to fill in some time while what seems like forever comes closer. its just a bad day. Tomorrow will be better, and the tomorrow after that...

HUGS

;-)

[Princess Wild Cow]

That melancholy you feel is perhaps unwanted, but necessary...without it would you pursue your dreams as quickly? It's that old "mixed feeling" thing. At nine, my daughter said..."Mom, I don't think I like mixed feelings." Be glad you can feel.